I did it anyway. Thanks Carrie Fisher!


My desktop wallpaper is simple but strong. It says "Do it anyway."- Carrie Fisher. Now, obviously Carrie is not the only person who has uttered those words so it's funny to accredit that quote fully to her but ya know, she was the Princess and all, so no arguing.

I had a situation come up, I was beyond blessed (like tremendously over blessed) with a solution to it today. However, it meant I had to leave the house. *queue the ominous background music* I was able to prop my leg with a pillow before I napped which took some pressure off and relieved some nerve pain I had been battling so my pain was edged off enough that I was able to get in my truck and go.

Enter the anxiety. Approaching the main road I began to feel the tightness in my chest, lump in my throat, nausea, dizziness and general "I gotta get outta here!" feeling. I did. I turned around in a hasty fashion (curbs love me!) and parked my truck right back in front of my home. Brainstorming on how to get what I needed to get handled began and during that process I began to get angry. In this case, angry was just what I needed. I finally just threw that truck back into gear and began to drive through the tears. When I approached the main road again, the song Oceans began playing and I just prayed and kept moving. I've had many moments in my life just like that and as dizzying as it is, I do try to just keep moving.

Thanks to determination, God's protection and a friend's hand to hold- I made it through just fine. I even got a sucker. Felt like a kid who'd just gone and gotten their shots. I'm totally out of spoons for the day now, so I don't expect to be doing much more than having dinner (yay God!) and lounging out with my awesome kiddo but I'm proud of me. I did it anyway.

editing to add: A kind blogger shared a comment below with a link to her post about the song Oceans and what it means to her and her struggle with panic/anxiety. It touched me so much I wanted to make sure it's seen. Go lookie.


28 comments:

  1. SO YES i am going to say I did it anyway , thank you for reminding us me and my husband this great sentences from the great fisher.

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  2. Good for you! I truly believe Oceans was inspired by God for anxiety. It helped me so much. I also wrote a blog post about it. If you're interested: http://bonvoyageluv.blogspot.com/2016/11/walk-upon-water.html

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    1. I wish I could just hug you right now! I'm in tears (good ones, though!) after reading your post. Hope it's okay, I'm gonna edit this post to add a link to yours since it's such a similar feeling. (following you on bloglovin' now too, cuz, well, knowing you aren't the only one trying to declare victory over these battles is empowering) <3

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  3. Good for you to push through and I love the quote. I have always tried to be optimistic and just push through things most of the time. But when I get anxious I have a habit of soaking in the tub, a cat nap clear my mind, regroup and try again.

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    1. It's so much easier said than done to just push through sometimes. Thanks for the encouragement and kind words!

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  4. I suppose it wasn't Oceans by Pearl Jam?:) "Do it anyway" is simple but as you said: really strong and motivating. We all know what is the best for us, we just need to follow our needs.

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    1. LOL, nope, Hillsong! And yes, exactly... giving ourselves permission to do what is best for us seems simple on the surface but is incredibly empowering.

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  5. Do it anyway. Action is the pre-cursor to results. Thank you for writing and nice thoughts by the way!

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  6. I love how you were able to push through the anxiety to go and get things done anyway. "Anyway" is the best way to do anything - despite the fear, despite the worry, despite the what-ifs.

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    1. Yes, yes, yes! And thank you. I couldn't decide if I wanted to throw a party to celebrate or take a long nap after all that! LOL

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  7. That's great that you decided to keep going anyway. That's hard to do. You're lucky that you have a friend willing to help you through.

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    1. Yes, so lucky and so blessed! Thank you!

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  8. Girl! First off, Oceans is like that song you can play no matter the emotion you may be feeling and it acts as if everything is going to be all right, because it will be. Sometimes when we don't think we can do it, He gives us this little push to remind us how strong we really are. Keep doing it anyway (;

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    1. <3 <3 <3
      Right?! And even when we aren't strong enough, He is and He's holding us!

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  9. YAS!
    I SO SO SO agree, sometimes you just gotta get up and go for it, right?!

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  10. My 1st time to hear this song is in my Auntie's room, I saw her sitting in her chair looking outside her window. I asked her if she's OK, she answered "Yes" then she smiled. She always plays that songs, I think she really like the lyrics.
    There are thingsnin life that we always wanted to just stay but I like to give you a hug for making that big step.

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    1. The lyrics are incredibly inspirational. Thanks for the hug!!

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  11. I find your post just inspiring. I'm sorta going through something right now and the message that you're communicating is just spot on. I feel that fear is playing with me right now - fear of failure, fear of disappointing people, fear of not being able to make it, but yeah ... I gotta do it anyway.

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    1. I'm so glad it was inspiring to you! You have no idea how much that motivates me to keep going and be transparent in my sharing. Thank you!

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  12. That song is very inspiring, it's the first time I have ever hear it and I like it. You experience with anxiety that day is also inspiring to hear how you worked your way through it and got what you needed done.

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    1. Yes it is and I'm glad you like it. Thank you for the kind words!

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  13. Wow! Life can sure be challenging and hard at times. It is so important to just do it! Even when it hurts. It is even better when someone comes along for our ride.

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    1. Definitely easier with someone by your side. :)

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  14. Omg just love this quote!!! So inspiring!!!! We all just have to keep pushing until we reach the prize

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  15. It's on my desktop wallpaper too. I am thinking about painting something with it on it too to put on the wall somewhere. :)

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